‘Trapped’ tells of feelings of being ‘caged in’ by the eating disorder, when the control I thought I had began to take control of me and I felt alone, as many begin to feel in the throes of an eating disorder, despite support or those that love them. I began to long to be free again.
Trapped
I feel so alone.
And trapped.
Liked a caged animal;
knowing that when free,
I can run;
I can run free;
roam free and be with the others.
Yet as it is,
the bars hold me in;
Limiting my space and movement. Some pass by:
‘How beautiful!’ they exclaim. Others reckon I am better off held in, yet they complain at my raging behind the bars.
Lioness behind bars;
yet I don’t bite.
I’m simply trapped
and alone.
Longing to be free.
Leighah Darcy
1994/5