My eating disorder started when I was bullied at work. At first I thought I could handle the bullying, but then it got that bad I had no confidence, low self – esteem and a low self – worth.
The only way I felt I could handle my feelings and not show any emotion was to restrict my eating, and then sick the food up when I did eat something.
I thought I was in control, but my eating disorder spiraled out of control so that I wasn’t in control anymore, and instead the eating disorder was controlling me.
Now I am trying to recover. Recovery is hard, and even though I still have blips and thoughts about my weight and being overweight, I’m trying to not give up recovery, because I really want to get better, and one day I could help others going through the same thing.